Here it comes again

Yeah, in another 'I hate CF' mood.
went to a friend's funeral last night.
I did ok for the first few mins.
but it didnt last. I cried for about 1 1/2hrs straight.
and as we all know crying always makes breathing more difficult.
so of course I had a bit of an episode. started wheezing and gasping in the back of the room.
and I'm the idiot that left her inhaler in the car.
a random lady handed me a tissue, which didnt help the breathing situation, but it gave me something to squeeze. which helped.

one thing the deacon said hit me. he said "there is no good age to die, but 25 is way too young"

and its so true.

CF, you need to take a time out and think about what you've done.
because as it stands now, the median age for someone with CF is 37. this means that 50% of people with CF will die before that age.

with CF walk-a-thon season quickly approaching theres never been a better time to get the word out about CF. its time to get more people aware. more people donating. so that more research can be done to prolong the lives and eventually cure those with Cystic Fibrosis.



Picture I made in memory of Tina <3
4/6/85-1/23/11



LINKS OF INTEREST:

Instructional video about CF patients that Tina & her father were asked to participate in. She does a fabulous job, and her father really hits hard on the reality. its about 20mins. but its worth the watch!!

My GreatStrides donation page.

Frustrations

So yeah, went to register for classes today.
FAIL.
neither of the 2 classes I needed were open. and its only the first day for in person registration.
and I couldnt register online because I was out last semester because I was sick.
BULL.
So I registered for the ONLY class I can possibly take in the nursing program.
(a class that they originally told me I didnt need to take because I had taken it at another school)
but FINE.
I'll take it, just for the sake of taking a class so I can keep my 3.75GPA. and have the option of online registration next semester.

Also, I found out today, that at this school, I need 3 math classes before I can get in the nursing program. as opposed to the 2 I needed at the other school (1 of which I already took)


I'm so fed up.
I'm obviously not cut out for this.
I'm starting to think I should just give up.

Car Accident

so I got in my first car accident today. 6yrs of driving. perfect record. ruined.
I cried, for hours.

I was in a turn only lane to get off the highway.
and some lady in the next lane over decided she wanted to be in the gas station.
and merged into me.
then got out of her car and started screaming at me, even though it was clearly her fault.
I called the cops.
and the dude at the gas station like yelled at me saying "why did you even call the cops? why didnt you just tell her you'd pay for her car?"

I didnt answer, I just closed my window, but I was thinking. "what the fuck is wrong with him, why would I pay for her car?"

and then the cop was like 12. not really obviously. he was convinced I needed an ambulance cuz I was shaking so bad, I was just really shook up. but he was rather obnoxious, and didnt know what he was doing. so I'm counting on the insurance company to work it all out.

its obvious by the damage on my car that it was her fault (like the location of the scratches)


but yeah, my mom met me at the gas station that I pulled into, and followed me home where I had to redo my makeup which was all over my face due to me crying.
the drove me to work.

I'm epicly tired. and I dont know why I'm still awake.
I feel like crap. have had a fever all day. and I'm not happy about it.
ah well. good night everyone.

whats new in the duck pond

So yeah, its been awhile.
Still working! as you know I'm only part time now, but its going good.
Registering for school next week.
with the weather my health has been up & down.
also me upper ear piercing on my left ear got all infected again.
It was really weird. it was totally fine, I just took the earrings out to soak them. and there was a weird bump in my ear, I squeezed it, and BAM! explosion of infectious goo! so yeah, I guess I opened up the infection again and its like ouchy again.
I'm not happy.
but yeah, moving on.

I went upstate NY to joanie's with Daniella & my family. it was nice.





then I stayed with Cindy for 2 days.
we went grocery shopping, hung out with her friend john,
oh and got locked out!
then we were bums, and laid in bed watching movies for 24hrs!







Locked out




So yeah, thats about it. I'm currently at my friends house playing with her and her adorable children!

Lots of love everyone!
Breathe Easy<3